Sunday at work...

So I haven't posted in a few days and a few new developments have popped up...

1) Had my meeting with Devon on Friday...didn't go as planned exactly...while she says she appreciates everything I'm doing, the phrases "you're everywhere" and "trying too hard" definitely came up more than once.  This really frustrates me because the only reason I felt a need to be "everywhere" was because she was never around to give guidence...and when I did ask for help in the form of email or to her face, she was always "too tired" or "not in the mood to think." So to respond to this, she has put together a more structured plan of what she wants me to do. For example, I have a checklist to abide by everyday, and it is under my assumption that I'm not to foray from that checklist.  She also is going to give me one project every week to complete and only one project...according to her this should help the whole "you're everywhere" phenomenon.  However, according to me, this equals boredom.  I don't think she understands that I work at a faster speed than most (especially her).  I'm not one to just sit around and do nothing when I know there are things I could be doing at work.  And it frustrates me to no end that she refuses to even mention what the other project ideas are to me until I finish the first one.  *sigh* It also doesn't help at all that I feel like I'm constantly being compared to Megan...the superhero who used to be Devon's hospitality specialist that everyone worshipped the ground she walked on.  Whatever, I guess I just have to conform and do what is asked of me even though I can see more positive ways for my time to be spent.  It also really gets to me that she literally doesn't confide anything about her personal life to me.  I would say that would be about professionality, but I think it might just be because she doesn't like/trust me.  For example, today she was having a horrible day and you could really tell...like see it in her face and smile and everything, but instead of explaining at all what was wrong, she spends the entire day with Addison at the concierge desk venting to him, only to stop talking everytime I would come over! This also annoys me because Addison is definitely my talking buddy.  NOT HERS! Hopefully things will get better soon....

2) The whole "giving up not exercising for Lent thing" is not going so well, I've exercised a bit, and truthfully more that I have in the past couple of months, heck more than I have since this summer, but still not every day like I said...this is only to be complicated by the fact that......

3) I finally have a roommate in the basement, he moved in yesterday and his name is Joe.  He seems older, kindof looks a little like Drew Lauderdale.  But him being there definitely complicates the plan to do aerobics in the basement on days when I have work.  Oh well, maybe I'll just have to warn him and get the embarassment over with...its not like I want to sleep with him or anything haha

4) Speaking of sleeping with people...haven't slept with Charlie since last Saturday, thats a week and a day for us.  Haven't seen Charlie since last Monday...and while it feels good in some ways, I'm still not too sure how I feel about him, so I'm anxious to hang out with him for a bit to figure it out.  The only problem is since it's been so long since we've seen eachother, when I say hang out, he will hear have sex.  It's difficult because there are times when we're apart that I really hate his guts for the things he assumes he can say and the way that he talks to me, but there are times when we're together that he really makes me laugh and I really enjoy his presence.  It's unfortunate because the one thing that I do know that I feel about Charlie is that the sex is boring me.  Hardcore.  I can literally imagine in my mind how our sex starts and finishes.  Every. single. time.  I'll even do an instant replay just so that in the off chance in the near future I happen to forget (since I'm the only one that reads this blog), I will be able to remember. 
Step 1) Put on a movie
Step 2) He starts rubbing my back
Step 3) He starts rubbing my butt
Step 4) He starts rubbing my butt under my pants
Step 5) He starts to finger me
Step 6) I usually pull away at this point and we start making out/undressing
Step 7) Once we're naked (takes about 20 seconds) he starts to "tease" me with his penis
Step 8) This doesn't last for long because once he's inside me he can't really stop that well
Step 9) We have sex for a while without a condom on
Step 10) His bed starts to move so we move to the side/edge of the bed with him standing
Step 11) He starts again
Step 12) I get off
Step 13) He decides he can't stand it without cumming any longer
Step 14) He stops to put a condom on
Step 15) We keep having sex
Step 16) He cums
I think the next time we hang out I'm just gonna tell him that we need to mix things up a bit if this is going to continue.  We hardly even make out anymore and there's literally no foreplay...it just sucks because it feels like everyone else in my life is telling me I deserve more and he still treats me like shit.  I just feel like he doesn't appreciate what he has, which makes me feel worse.  Everyone wants me to drop him but I just feel bad doing that because I know that he's still bitter and upset from his last breakup.  I just can't decide if that's an ok excuse to treat me like crap.  We haven't been able to see eachother for a while so I'm not really sure what's going on.  I'm hoping we'll be able to hang out in the next couple of days cause I have time off.

5) Enter Peter Zamaikas...there's not too much to say about him other than he looks super sexy in a chefs uniform, he's 32, I'm pretty sure he makes Charlie jealous, and I don't really think he's interested in me...but I do still have his pants so we'll see lol  I've made a good effort to try and meet up with him to give him his pants back, but it still seems like he's not interested in meeting up.  Maybe he'll text me tomorrow...I don't really want to keep his pants though so I'll definitely have to get them back to him eventually.

6) Planning on calling the animal shelter and SOME tomorrow to see the status of my applications, so hopefully that is good

7) Besides exercising, I think I'm gonna try and go to this Navy music thing tomorrow to celebrate African American History month, it's at noon which is a little early so I'm not sure if I'll make it, but I'm gonna try.

8) Oh new development on the roommate front...he's a talker...and a snuggler...fml.